Losing My Way...

I...Don't know what to do no more. I mean...I love my girl. She is smart, cute, pretty funny, gorgeous, adorable, different in her own way, hard headed, stubborn, tough, but soft and just about the complete package. But sometimes... We feel distant or... I feel distant from her. Like... Sometimes when we talk on the phone, well... Most of the time when we're on the phone, it's usuallly me does most of the talking. I do about 80% of the talking. And when I ask her questions to get her to talk it's always short answers andthen... yeah...that's basically it. Just a short answer then nothing. Sometimes I talk and talk to fill the "awkward" silence and then when I shut up to see if she'll fill in the silence...it gets even more wierd. I don't think much about it, but whenever I do get to thinking about it...I'm just like "damn, we shouldn't even be having no silent moments" you know? And the only way she fills up the silence is by asking a question she's already asked in the beginning of the conversation already or by giving me a kiss or by saying I love you. And if I just respond and dont say something to start up another conversation...then it repeats like that untill we hang up or I start being an asshole and mess around with her. Other than that... then it's mostly just me talking. I mean...even with me talking...I should atleast get an opinion or thought or some kind of comment or response, you know? All I get is a "damn, really, wow, and a what the fuck". In a conversation between me and her... I say about 1000 words and she'll say about 150-200. That's no joke. It's not like I just run my mouth and don't let her talk...I do let her talk. I tell her I want her to. But she just doesnt. Why am I with her? Because I love her. Even though in a relationship you're supposed to meet half way at 50/50 or somewhat close to that...with me and her it's 80/20. With words, feelings, affection and everything else. Atleast...I feel that way. I dont know about her because she hardly shows anything at all. I love her enough to give that extra 30% just so we are complete. And why do I love her? I love this girl because she changes me. She doesnt really motivate me, but in way she does. I do everything with her in mind. Sometimes...or alot of times...I just let things slide or tell myself she's still young and is still growing. But whenever I think about the future, I see her in it. I want to do it all for her. To get her the things she deserves and the life she deserves. A good one. The best one. But now I look at us from outside the picture and I see us. Me and her. And when I think about it, hidden thoughts in the back of my mind seem to appear and take process. Why am I really with her? How did we even end up together? Why did I chose her? Why and how does she affect me? Why do I want to grow old with her? And with all these questions...it's sad to say...there aint a single answer. I can bullshit an answer like..."because she's the one or because I love her". But if you want to complicate things and ask why? I wouldnt really be able to answer it. I want to be with her and make everything work out. When you love someone...You make it work out. And I love her. I do. If not...I would've been long gone last year. These thoughts are crowding and clouding up my mind. It feels like my vision has been blurred. Like, my mind has been over worked and the gears have rusted and fallen apart. Im no longer functioning correctly. I'm simply just....losing my way......