Just So Happens...

Last night I waited all night and she never called. I kind of fell asleep waiting for her at 6 in the morning. The phone never rang. Not once. She called me today and we talked for a bit. Said her brother found the laptop while she was in the shower and when she got out they called her downstairs and asked her about it. Then one minute later after I asked her a question she tried to repeat herself, but then said her other brother took it. He so happened to be in her room. I caught it and noticed the story changed, but I didnt say anything. Aint it just wierd how she planned to go to prom with that guy, I found out, then her laptop is taken away? By the way...that's how she calls me. From the laptop. But yeah...it came to my mind without thinking or hesitation. Like common sense. The prom is in 2 fridays. About 3 weeks from our one year. And out of no where her laptop is suddenly gone? She cant talk or contact me at night. Only on weekdays when she gets home untill close to 6pm then she gotta go because her brother is coming home. Prom is on friday. Weekday. And prom is at night....after 6pm. So does that look a little wired? I dont mean to accuse and say nothing much, but these are my thoughts. And I have these thoughts because of our history. I have my reasons and she understands it. To make things short...she's lost my trust a while back and she is slowly regaining it. I didnt say much to her today and in fact she was only able to be on the phone for about 5 minutes. Didnt say much cuz I dont know what to say or do anymore. I feel like I try and try so hard and I give her so many chances and I'm also very patient with her to get her act together. If you know me...Im not a very patient person. But with her...I dont know...I just kinda am. I think she's just starting to get to me and Im just about close to being done. What am I to do? Again tonight....my mind is gonna be restless and im not going to be able to sleep. Might jus play another instrumental and come write another blog. *sighs*....I miss her though. Truly and honestly do. I miss her alot. And I just wish she could give me her whole heart and not think twice or look in any other direction. I wish she loved me as much as I do for her. It just so happens....love sucks....