I MISS...

Today, I woke up and had a smoke. Thought about me and her for good time. I missed all those times spent with her...Late nights just chillin in the car or walking around the block hand in hand, fingers between fingers. Or just holding her in front of me and staring deep into her eyes to have her lean in and kiss me ever so gently. I miss the long nights at the beach walking the long ass pier at O.B. Again...hand in hand and fingers between fingers. Used to bump and nudge her as we walked and kiss her cheek tryna kiss up haha. I miss holding her at 4 in the morning till the sun rose to watch the sunrise at the beach with her. I remember promising her the sunrise. We were already at the beach waiting for it then I realized the sun was going to rise at the other beach so we drove around from beach to beach to find it. San Diego has many beaches haha. Then we watched the sky light up, slowly turning bright orange and red as I held her in my arms and kissed her soft lips gently brushing mine against hers and embracing her presence. Nights with her felt like time slowed down and it allowed us to spend every waking moment with one another. Many nights were like that. Always so out of this world and stress free. Reality seems to fade off into into the background and at that very moment...it seemed like nothing else in the world mattered or even existed but me ad her. Let's not forget valentines day when I got her a dozen of her favorite flowers(lillies) and her favorite chocolate(ferrero rocher) in 2 different sizes in a heart shaped box tied with a ribbon. And to top it off...a lollipop wrapped up like a rose and 11 heart shaped red balloons with one massive music playin ballon on top of it singing a love song to her. I had all those things with me at 8 in the morning and waited for her to get home at midnight just to give it to her. *sighs* The things I do huh? Haha, well....it was worth it. Just to see that adorable smile on her face and her star gazing eyes sparkle up. I miss being able to do things like that for her. I miss making her feel special and happy. I miss her point blank.