Love & Relationships

you know? i thought about it alot and for a very long time. dont get me wrong. im not yelling. im simply jus talking regularly. well....in relationships and love there are many things. first and most importantly love. but there are also important things too like....honesty, loyalty, respect, and so on. in a relationship no one should wear the pants or be the boss because both should compromise and that's how relationships work out. you both have to put in your half and see eye to eye. understand one another. when you argue with him/her you're supposed to talk and not yell and be grown ups about the situation. listen and not just hear. but really listen and dont cut off. and if you do then apologize and make things better. and when one talks the other listens and pays attention. dont get all mad about it because its childish. you may get mad but please just state or address the problem or what they said wrong and continue the conversation. it should never have to be a big mess. compromise and understand one another. you have to understand that in a relationship there'e always going to be fights, pains and tears. everyone goes through with it even married couples. but the thing that counts is not how much they spend thier time adoring you or telling you they love you but actually sticking around after the fights. you may fight and one may leave the room or hang up or watever. but the next day you guys are cooled down and talk about it and work things out. that's love. marylin monroe said " if you cant handle me at my worst then you dont deserve me at my best" I truly do believe in that. because it relates to what i just said. one person may be on thier period for a time and be grumpy but the guy should never trip and tell her to fuck off...and the when the guy has had a rough day the girl shouldnt make it worse and tell him to man up but she should understand and make things better. or even just give him space. everyone has feelings and everyone carries a heart. everyone needs a shoulder once in a while and everyone wants to be loved. no one in the world doesnt care for love. that's why people try to fit in and be fake. to fit in and feel accepted and loved. that's why there are posers and such. because of that. they just want love. love....you cant live without it and you cant live with it. but its better to have loved then to not have loved. people chose thier own paths and write thier own destinies. they are never forced or lead to it. people make thier actions and it sets things in motion. in a relationship....both have to meet on common grounds and be on the same page. it takes two hearts to fill a relationship.

now...that was just a little info and my take on relationships and love. that's how i think its supposed to be. shitt just dont happen for a reason. it happens for a reason. now....i understand you made your decisions and you made them clear. you knew your consequences and the outcome and you still did it. you take full responsibilty for your actions. they were you're choices. no excuses and things like i dont know what i was thinking or i was caught in the moment. because no...you allowed yourself to be. and thinking back on what you said in your message it sounds to me like you're ready to be done. you say you're not but it sounds and seems like you are. you dont call back after i said bye and hung up. you didnt message me. you didnt apologize or try to fix things untill i sent you a message. and the thing that got to me was you saying "whoever you're going to marry" i dont know if you're gonna spend your whole lifetime or even a fraction of it tryna be good and prove me wrong and show me you love me to win me back. i dont know if you're just going to give up and walk away. you say one thing then another. you do one thing then another. so i honestly dont know. you always tell me no matter what leaving is not and will never be an option and you WILL make it work. but then you sent me a message saying you dont wanna be with me. not now. it sounds like im not gonna be the one standing next to you in the church. but its ok. i've finally understand and i respect your decisions. you can fight if you want and try to win me back or you can leave and do your own thing. but its your choice and you're decision. i just hope you dont expect me to wait around and wait for you because i wont. im ready to move on and get my life together. all the dreams i tell you....of my house and my kids and my cars and everything.....those are my dreams and i wanna make it come true. i am going to make it come true. im hungry for it. im striving for success. im not going to mope around in the past spending my time hating someone for no reason. it's not gonna make me any better or help me. its just gonna make me grow older and more bitter. make me more angry and unhappy. i dont wanna be angry no more. i dont wanna be sad no more. i dont wanna be negative no more. i dont wanna be sounding all emo and hating life no more. im going to live it to the fullest and love all that i can and laugh and smile all that i can. thank you tami....you made me realize sumthin and you changed my life around in a way. even though it had to hurt to get me here but the point is....i got here. im going to be happy and enjoy life. the people that love me and wanna join me can. everyone is welcome. but the ones that dont love me and wanna share a part of my life with them then they can do whatever they want. because it's thier decision and it's thier life. so thank you. i wont be giving up on life and love no more. imma be a changed man. better than i was before. imma think postive and love life. there's more to life then this. im only gonna live this life once and im already 19 years old. almost 20. time to find my place in the world and enjoy it. that's my choice and that's how i feel. so i apologize for hurting you or even making you cry for stupid little things. i really did love you though. more than you or anyone will ever know. i just want you to be happy tami. and if your choice is that you're still young and you wanna play and have fun then go for it. i dont want you to miss a thing. i've lived my life and im onto the next chapter. this is your chapter and you're in high school. you're not ready for things and stuff i have to offer. and its ok. i was just trying to keep you outta trouble and protect you. because i loved you. but if you feel you need to make every mistake possible to be perfect then its your decision. im not gonna force you to do anything or make you choose. i just simply told you what door led to what and what door led to what and you chose the doors you wanted to open. its ok. thats what you wanted. but thanks again. my eyes are open and im not gonna spend my life hating you. imma think of it as a positive movement in my life. imma be 10 times better. and i'll make sure everyone sees it. that's a promise. imma fight till the day that i die. and you and i may not be meant for one another but everyone has thier soulmate. when it's time and when i find her im going to love her with all my heart, give her everything i can, and hold onto her tight. im glad i had you. im glad we fought and we made up and it led to this. things happen for a reason. if you dont make it someone's future then it means you were never meant to be in thier future. have you ever heard the saying " i asked god for you then i got you, but then you left and i asked god why? and he said sorry...they didnt ask for you" i believe in that too. so thanks once again tami. if you wanna talk or have anything to say relating to this message then just gimme a call...goodbye tami. hope you're happy. take care pigglet.....