Got To Thinking.....

None of this even matters no more, but it's just a thought. I just got to thinking while listening to an instrumental and just here writing it out. Well... If someone loves you... Aren't they supposed to do the right things and not the wrong things? Aren't supposed to make you happy and not sad? Aren't they supposed to do things to keep you guys together and not do things to make you guys fall apart? That's what people do when they love someone. Well...part of it at least. I mean... If you don't wanna lose that someone then why do you do things to lose him/her? Especially if you know it's going to cause you two to part and especially if you know that he/she is going to find out. Then is it on purpose? And to have such a "huge" love for someone and do that to them? I mean...Why beg and cry and go suicidal to get him/her back just to get rid of what you guys shared on your own? Wouldn't it be easier to just say ok and let them walk away when they already are? But things are complicated when that person drags them back into the relationship just to ruin it. And especially to do it over and over again. I think it's just pathetic. I think it's dumb. You're either in or your out. If you want out then leave. If you want in then stay. It's weird and confusing to me. Do you understand it? Maybe they don't know what they want. But at times they are so sure and positive to the fact of what they want. Weird once again. But if you love someone and need someone that much to the point of life then when you lose them aren't you supposed to wait a lifetime for them? Fight for them every single day no matter what? Sun or rain? What ever happened to going to hell and back for someone? Or even sitting on their front porch and refusing to leave? Or none stop annoying phone calls and emails? Or things like holding on to their arm and or leg and refusing them to walk away? What happened to the love? Maybe it only happens in movies. That's true love and determination. Well...at least I can say I had mine. She fought for me and cried every single day and night just to win me back. She truly loved me but I did her wrong. Didn't know what I had till I lost it. She got married. It's funny how things change within a blink of an eye. It's funny how people lie their asses off to everyone. Especially me if you're trying to take me for a fool. Telling me you want a last chance and you finally realized it and you apologize and you need me and you wont ever do me wrong again and you do truly love me. HA! That's bullshit to the extreme. If you did then you would still be fighting for me. If you did then you would be trying to get things back. If you did then you would still be around. If you did then you would of never left. If you did then you would of never did me wrong in the beginning to start off with. But the truth to the fact is that you DON'T! You don't give a shit about me or anything. That's why I'm perfectly fine. Because it was never anything between one another. It was a lie. All of it. Every word, promise, kiss, and gift. At least my half was legit. This is nothin' though....I just got to thinking....Gonna go have me a smoke now. Until next time.